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ok... a bit of emo-ing since i sincerely do not have the time to write about MY EXCITING NUA-ING LIFE!!

anyone of u lovelies here have had the experience of trusting another, helping with whatever you can, even though that person seems to be manipulating you? times n times again, that person did NOTHING!! not a god damn thing, not even the simple saying of thank you? n yet you had the very faith that person will appreciate your deeds one very day, so you helped to a further extent, to a stage where other friends and family leave you cause they could not bear to see the stupidity you are going through.

just when i thought i can be angry n NEVER forgive that very person, i saw the email i'd never opened, neither did i delete for the proof that i DID NOT open it. there's this evil temptation for me, coaxing me "open me open me!!" perhaps the best way is for a mutual friend to help me read it. but i'm so afraid to be hurt again. you see, this very person sorta ruined my life for a few months. though it was also thanks to that person i got to spend those valuable time i had with my friends and colleagues, but i gotta admit i want vengance on that person one day. secretly, i want to throw that person down from whatever tall heights that person can achieve one day. YES. THAT'S BLOODY HOW MUCH HATRED I HAD IN ME. but then again, i know i'll never do it. like all other displease, i know time will slowly, but surely cure me from this disease of vicious cycle. til then, is there anyone who will volunteer to read the thorn in my mailbox for me?

thanks in advance =)