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ok i wanna give a big thank you to people who wished me happy birthday!! be it early but most likely late.
this is to ALL the people who asked me how's my birthday this year.
to put things straight, it was terrible, horrible and worst!! i'm sure even my baby days birthdays did better than this

summary:
boring rate: 100%
surprise rate: 100% in the NEGATIVE side
happiness rate: -100%
disappointment rate: uncountable

not only am i sad with the becoming of a 2 as the 1st digit, i'm freaking disappointed in many areas
wanna know why? i'll tell u why... let's break it down into groups

besties- i'm truly happy they celebrated for me. though its 1 wk in advanced, fully understandable considering they are busy with sch, commission parade(GXN UG!! =] )but this yr i told them i want a bag n they got me a husky toy... i get the idea that they want me to bring it to aussie as angel no 2, but i wun have space for it. n i cant sleep with it cause its too hard. there i am clearing all the stuffed toy in my house, n here is another stuffed toy as my bd pressie. i admit its my fault for mentioning me-to-u bear at all in the 1st place, but i tot bag would be easy since bags dun have sizes and all. anw thoughts appreciated. this i mean it.

holiday gang- well shu's working, j ALMOST forgot my birthday i supposed, until i saw him for clubbing, n grave... thought she would know the most since i confided so much to her... but perhaps she was busy with her work n trip today... but anw it was shu's msg after the 15th that hit me... the magical 15th of march is gone then u say u wanna celebrate for me... i just stop dancing in zouk n stoned around because its so hard to digest... all those waiting n anticipation made me feel like a big, fat, idiotic fool...

2/4 gang (silin that side)- i really really dunno what to say... i'd shut up regarding this.

table tennis gang- another disappointment since they mentioned celebrating in advance, but a few of them rmb 15mar only on the 16th. n we just met last month when u all discussed shortly about when to meet...

TT03- after 3 yrs, considering 1yr that we had the "sub-friend" problem... i never celebrated with u guys before... nope... not even a birthday song other that the baoc meeting. not expecting much but not their fault also

TT04- piang only know them for a sem... they rmb my bd n send me msg is darn gd enough

family- i spend the morning sleeping, afternoon gg to sebawang to see land (wtf) while ai qiang have tution almost the whole day. bought my cam (finally), had dinner then i went out. GREAT celebration huh... n the cake was only remembered on the 14th. but nevertheless the camera did made pingu happier since that's what i want... (NO MUM!! I REFUSE THOSE DIAMOND N PEARL NECKLACE WHICH I MIGHT NEVER WEAR!!)

so u see... the only people who celebrated for me this yr is only besties and my family

ok... u all might think
aiyo pingu is so ji jiao
walao pingu is so superficial
piang greedy pingu ask for so much
where got ppl ask for so much de!?!
F!)@&$K u la pingu
in short, this- "wth stupid pingu"

i understand my birthday is no bloody big deal n most have things or work on
it's not that they choose to be busy right??
well sorry i'm not some queen or sultan to be fit to have a public holiday to my birthday then

i know of some ppl who promised to celebrate for me later on... but why don't everybody just accumulate the birthdays for years and celebrate later??
oya wait... i wun be around




* but this is what hurts the most... u know why?? cause this yr not only i'm sensitive about being 20 but because my 21 bd is not going to be in s'pore... not going to be with the people i cared about and people i wanna be celebrating with the most when i become an adult. unlike grave who will be most likely able to come back to celebrate the significant 21, NO, i WILL NOT be around. last yr i was in china... next yr and more years to come i'll be in australia and yes my tickets are booked... is it too much to ask for a better birthday for this year??*




when the date become 16th of march, it's WEE CHEW'S birthday, not mine... wish him instead... my date n time of birth cannot be changed and all the more time wun turn back just because people wanna celebrate for me. the date is long gone n it wun be 15th march 2008 again. neither is the so called celebration for my 20th bd be a celebration because after the day it's actually just another outing

n this year, for the 1st time in my entire pathetic life, there's MORE belated sms than on the actual day. so is 15 of march harder to remember than 16 of march?? i dunno... but after the stroke of midnight, it dawned on me that nobody else remember my date n it quite of hurts me badly in a way... but of course i'm thankful that they remember just 1 day late... but somehow i lost the moltivation to send the thank you msg to them...

u know how i feel? easily phrased is that nobody cares abt me... so i dun care and write all these crappy stuff here... i'm pretty sure some will get offended, n sure this entry will be used against me, be it to tease me or to scold me... but i feel like an useless idiot getting pushed around if i don't voice what i really wanna scream n shout abt. in a way, i'm sorry to write this, but anw i had already posted it and that's that...

i'll giving myself a break to relax myself n also psycho myself to be happier... so unless i promised u to go out since i dunno when, i wun go out. n yes i was too lazy to reply msg as well n so will be the next few days...

i have no doubt now that once i go for aussie, people would totally forget who's pingu...