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pingu is going to count like count Dracula's in sesame st
first pingu n mama spend almost 1000 bucks in 2.5 days
1/2 day off on Friday to shop around
THIS is my working life =/

and then- behold- we bought:
3 jewellery boxes
saw billabong sales (its worth going!!)
n we bought 2 tees, 2 bag, 2 jeans, 1 shorts (grave said jolly well can buy in aussie)
tons of micellaneous stuffs

but all these cannot satisfy me
*prepare for my ali-ness*
pingu is super depressed though she might not show it
for forever, FOREVER (is forever a term to coin numbers?), i cannot wear contact lens for long term
occasionally is the word
once a yr? monthly? weekly? wtf. no lens unless REALLY needed
i'm the type who wears almost everyday k!!?

and i went to the eye review happily cause i thought the damage was short term
but doc just have to throw me into the Antarctic of freezing water
lasik is my only hope, but with another 1+ month before i leave for aussie,
its too short a notice to go for the op
seriously i felt like the sky smashed down on me
n to prove his argumentative point, he numbed the eyes, paper poked into the balls
n i got 10 n 16 for dryness (on average is 15-35)
after almost 4 yr, he dropped the bombshell i was never suitable for lens

i wanna cry my eyes out, i really do...
but i don't want to go blind
nothing can help now... n i hate wearing spects
i don't fucking care how many people say i look good in spects cause i think its a BIG FAT LIE
resent moving around with a frame on my nose, hate to constantly push the frame upwards, detest the restraint that comes with the piece of crapy metal

HAPPY MAMA DAY TO ALL!!

my mama like my gifts to her so much she wants to return me the favour
maybe she's trying to cheer me up after all the crap
gucci wallet? ipod nano/touch? or a new laptop?
who cares? =/
nothing can help my eyes now